Is it God or You?

Is it God or You?

By Sister Felicia

fmland32@gmail.com    

As we walk with God and ask Him to lead our path, we know to walk by faith.  We ask for him for direction and move accordingly.  However, there were times when I would ask for direction, but I didn’t quite get the result I was looking for.  I knew God was telling me to move that way, but I didn’t understand why it felt like a struggle.  That’s when I discovered I was asking the wrong question.

In August of 2017, I began to praise dance at the church I attend.  The dance isn’t choreographed, rather the praise & worship team sings, the praise dancers minister in unison with a lead dancer in the front.  When I say lead dancer, this is not a designated position for one person, but it’s a role that changes throughout the song service.  This dancer is selecting the movements as directed by the Holy Spirit and the other dancers are following the exact movements.
When I initially began to dance I would only take on the role of a dancer who followed as I was learning the basics.  I had never danced in the past so just submitting to dance in front of the church was a big step for me.  Over time I became more confident in the abilities God gave me, but as we all know once you are comfortable in one place, God never lets you stay there.  It’s time to continue to grow!

Towards the end of the year in 2017, I was positioned as the leader and it was difficult.  To begin there were too many things going on in my mind, such as what should my next move be, I’m not sure what to do next God, that move didn’t look right, etc.  I was frustrated.  God had positioned me to lead, but I felt as if he wasn’t helping me when I asked him, “Lord what should I do next?”.  I planned the initial movement when leading, but keeping up with the counts, trying to follow the move of the Spirit and thinking of the next movement was just too much.  There was simply too much going on in my mind that was causing confusion. (We all know who the author of confusion is don’t we?)  At that point I wanted to avoid the lead role altogether!

I continued to dance and seek God, when he revealed I was not asking the right question.  During a praise dance training session, I was leading and speaking to a veteran dancer.  I was expressing the difficulties I was having and advised I was asking the Holy Spirit “What should I do next, but I wasn’t hearing anything?”.  She then replied and said, “No Felicia, you must ask, “God what would you have me to do?”.  While this may seem minor, God was trying to show me that this is not about me, but the fact that he wants to move through me.

Without God we cannot do anything he’s purposed for us, but the bible says, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength”.  I wasn’t getting direction because I was asking what “I” should do.  He taught me, Felicia cannot do anything.  When I tried I was confused and I failed.  However, the next day when I went forward to be the lead dance minister, I asked God what he would have me to do next and his anointing fell upon on me like never before through dance.  I was no longer thinking about what I should do next, but asking him to be glorified.  I was asking him to minister through me, to his people.  I didn’t focus on the next move too much, I simply focused on the Spirit and flowed wherever it led me.  That’s how breakthrough occurred for me as a lead dancer.

Therefore, I ask you today, what question are you asking God?  Is it a question centered around “I” or is it “God”?  God wants the glory in all things he does in our lives.  We must always remember that we can do only because he is doing through us by the Holy Spirit, not because we have power to do anything on our own.  I urge you to apply this question in every area of your life and take all focus off of yourself. Ask, “Holy Spirit, what would have me to do?”  At that point, trust him at his word that he will indeed do it!God bless you,
Sister Felicia
EMAIL: fmland32@gmail.com    Felicia serves as a blog contributor for The Ministry of Linda L. Johnson. http://www.theministryoflljohnson.org/blog.php

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All Things God Works for the Good

By Sister Felicia

Felicia serves as a blog contributor on behalf of The Ministry of Linda L. Johnson. “All Things God Works for the Good” is the sixth of a series consisting of 12-monthly blogs.

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EMAIL: fmland32@gmail.com        

All Things God Works for the Good

On this Resurrection weekend, God has had me to just stop and meditate on him. Jesus, the Son of Man was sacrificed and slain for the crime of blasphemy. He claimed to be the Son of God. Little did the men know at the time, that He was telling the truth as He is the Son of God and cannot lie.
It is written in Romans 8:28, “And we know that all things God works for the good of those who love him. Who have been called according to his purpose.” It’s hard to believe the things we consider to be bad are considered to work together for our good at times. How can fornication, loneliness, a barren womb, drug addiction, fear, sickness, or debt, work together for the good of those who love him? Consider Jesus’s life. He came to die. His entire purpose in life was to die. We now know why that was necessary and considered good. For he was the lamb that was slain that we may be reconciled to God. That is a good thing for mankind.

However, I’d like you to place yourself back in the time of Jesus. Jesus had healed others, opened blind eyes, raised Lazarus from the dead, delivered men from demons, yet he could not save himself from death? The people were confused. They had thought this was the Son of God, The Messiah. They didn’t understand why he would give himself to die if he was the king. He should have saved himself! If I’m honest, I would have thought the very same thing at the time because the full story had not been written. Because we have the Bible and Christ lives within us, we know Jesus chose to die to save us from our sins. And we know that all that he went through was not in vain. There was a purpose for each and everything that occurred in his life, including his gruesome death.

Why then do we question when trials occur in our life? Why do we fear and try to chase away obstacles? Yes, sometimes the storm comes and it is not of Christ, but sometimes it is. God is trying to strengthen us and teach us a lesson to increase in Him. How can we know God as a provider if we’re never lacking? How can we know God as a healer if we’re never been sick? We cannot. How can our faith increase in Him if we are never faced with anything? Sometimes, God has to send us storms to develop us.

Most of my life was lived on the straight and narrow path. I thought I knew God, but I didn’t really. I had accepted God’s salvation but I had not allowed him to be Lord of my life. Sometimes I didn’t understand how others got into certain predicaments and would be judgmental towards them. That is when the Lord tested me and I failed miserably! I was an adulteress for 3 ½ years. I now could see how this could happen and why this happens. I was ashamed for a long period of time. I wondered how I had gotten to that state of being, but then I made Jesus Lord of my life and asked him to deliver me. He took that shame away, lifted my head and now I can sympathize with others and feel their pain from place I could not before I went through this myself. Now I’m not wishing this on any of you, but God used this sinful period in my life to teach me how to forgive others. Love others and minister to others in this predicament. At the time I blamed God for all the hurt and pain I felt he led me into. “Why God, why did you allow this to happen?” Of course this wasn’t God’s fault, it was mine, but it is my testimony to say that if I had not experienced that level of brokenness and pain from this period of adultery, I would have never gotten to the point in life where I asked him to be my Lord. Now almost 2 years later, I can say,“I see now Lord! I understand and I’m thankful to have gone through that painful, confusing time in my life. For if I had not, I would not know how marvelous and loving you are oh God!”

I now look upon others from a place of love and compassion. Having fallen short, as we all have, I don’t judge others in the place they’re at, I just try to love and accept them. I want others to experience the great love of the Father. I want him to speak to your heart and guide your path. Take away guilt, shame, fear, break generational curses and deliver you from any stronghold you may be facing!

I ask you today to look deep inside yourself and have a conversation with your God. Do you really know him and love him? Are you allowing God to steer your wheel or are there areas in your life where you are taking the wheel back, especially when storms arise? Though often scary, I would challenge you to allow him to steer your wheel and remember Romans 8:28 which states, “And we know that all things God works for the good of those who love him. Who have been called according to his purpose.”Although you cannot see it right now, everything happens for a reason. Ask him to help you navigate through the storm. Ask him to teach you and most of all trust him that at the proper time he will deliver you.
God bless you,
Felicia

Blind Faith

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By Sister Felicia

Felicia serves as a blog contributor for The Ministry of Linda L. Johnson

“Now faith is the confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see”, Hebrews 11:1 .  “For we walk by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7….These are two of the most popular scriptures on faith in the bible.  In my opinion, having faith is one of the most difficult aspects walking with God.  I pray and ask God for things. I start out with great faith, but then when I don’t see it, sometimes I get discouraged, anxious, or nervous that it will not come to pass.  Other times I may doubt God ever promised me what I was believing for to begin with.  It’s at these times of confusion and uncertainty, I know to turn to the Lord, be still and allow Him to minister to my Spirit.  We all know God is not the author of confusion and Satan would like nothing more than to rob us of what God has promised us. It’s at these times our faith must increase, opposed to decrease.

A few weeks back I was in what I consider to be an “old school” gas station car wash.  I say this because there was an attended inside the car wash and there were brushes cleaning your car opposed to the more modernized water pressure type of cleaning.  There were multiple cars in line for a wash that day, so I sat patiently awaiting my turn.  Before the wash started, I could see the very expensive limousine truck not too far in front of me going through the wash.  The attendant took my number to verify I had paid, ensured my wheels were aligned to the washer and told me to put my car in neutral to start the first step.  While in neutral, my car was moving along the path and then immediately, I could not see anything.  I wasn’t sure if the truck was still in front of me or those were brushes.  Everything was blurry!  Was the attendant still watching or had he moved to the car behind me!  “God, please do not let me crash into that expensive truck I thought to myself!  Is this over yet?  Should I turn on the windshield wipers? When will this be over?!”

Although I was tempted to stop the process multiple times, I allowed my car to continue moving through each step. I managed to calm my nerves and trust the process.  I trusted that the attendant knew what he was talking about and patiently waited for the car to rinse and dry.  By the time the wash had ended, all was well, I had a clean car and did not slam into the limo truck that was in front of me.

Many of us have gone through car washes multiple times in our lives, but God used this experience to show me how many of us are regarding believing him and taking him at his word.  We get fearful in the middle and want to Stop The Process because we don’t understand what is going on.  Others wonder why exactly God is taking so long. Remember God says in his word, “My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways” (Isaiah 55:8).  He is a God who is ordering our steps.  We won’t receive all the answers, understand, or see it until the process is completed.  Trust that God knows better than you do.

I don’t know what God has promised you or what obstacles you are facing but remember as I said in my previous blog, “Press on!”.  Faith is placing hope in God for something we cannot see.  Just because you cannot see it now or it didn’t happen when you thought it should doesn’t mean God isn’t going to do it for you.  Often, He’s testing you to see how much you really want it.  He wants to develop your faith to continue to ask for greater things in the future, because if you cannot believe God can bless you to pay your rent for, how can you believe him to pay for your home mortgage?

Allow God to stretch your faith, knowing you will not be able to see it.  For the word says, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (Galatians 6:9) I’m not sure who God is speaking to but keep the faith! Trust that God will come through FOR YOU!
God Bless, Felicia            Email:  fmland32@gmail.com
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Single in Purpose

Sister Felicia serves as a Christian Blog Contributor for The Ministry of Linda L. Johnson where her anointing and assignment is to blog concerning singles and relationships. We offer this blog series to encourage and bring hope to believers and unbelievers, especially singles.
The Love of My Life is the first from the Singles Relationship Series, a series consisting of 12-monthly blogs at: http://www.theministryoflljohnson.org/blog/the-love-of-my-life

 

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The Love of My Life In my season of singleness, I sometimes have feelings of loneliness. I have met and spoke to other singles who have similar feelings. One of the weapons I use to fight off these feelings of loneliness is writing/journaling. I pour out whatever is inside of me on paper. Sometimes those feelings are positive, in a state of thankfulness. However in my periods of loneliness, the writing tends to be in a sad, “woe is me state of mind”. Towards the end of my pity party, God shows up and reminds me, I have everything I need in Him.

One day not too long ago, the lonely feelings came upon me, so I decided to write a letter to “The love of my life”, which in my mind equated to the man that God is preparing for me. In this writing I was sharing how I missed him and how my heart was ready to love him. I shared that I was preparing to be a selfless partner and friend. Midway through this letter, I began to recount all of the times God had delivered me from areas of bondage as He was preparing me to be a wife. Then I recounted the times God blessed me by answering my prayers or simply blessing me beyond anything I could ask or think. I began to recount the love God had poured out to me and how He loved and accepted me in, as a sinner. Despite all of my filth and faults, God accepted me as I am, loving me unconditionally. As I pursued God, He began to teach me His ways and He worked on my heart, in the quest of showing me the princess of the King that I am.

After I recounted all of these things, joy filled my heart! I was no longer sad or lonely. It was in that moment I realized, that I had already met “The Love of my Life”! Jesus! Jesus, is the love of my life! I know many people say this and it can sound cliché, but when you take the time and write down on paper ALL of the things God has done for you, you cannot help but to feel special. Truly loved. If you recount the time He saved you, the countless times He’s delivered you, the times He’s blessed you, you can’t help but to feel joy! To make it personal for me, I recounted the very day He saved me, when He delivered me from the health scare of cervical cancer, when he delivered me from the enemy’s attempts to take my life, when He delivered me from fornication, when He loved my son so much that He would save his life when the enemy told me to abort him 16 years ago, when He allowed me to graduate from college in 4 years despite having a child, how He blessed me to have a successful career at multiple fortune 500 companies despite being a single mother, how He’s blessed me to travel with my son, how He has provided me with more than enough despite the fact that I’m supposed to be a statistic and most importantly, the fact the He loves me unconditionally, just because. He has shown me true love. He’s never left me or forsook me despite the times when I’ve chosen to leave Him. He is still faithful!

Therefore, brothers and sisters in Christ, before you seek the love a man or woman, desiring to develop a relationship with a person, ensure the true love of your life is Jesus. No man or woman can ever love you with the love your Father God has for you. It is from Jesus that we learn how to love another person. We’re required to love how He has loved us. We must love unconditionally even when we don’t feel “loving feelings” or feel we have been wronged by our mate. Why? Jesus still loved us despite of all the times we’ve sinned against Him. We must possess the fruit of the spirit with the mate God has called us to, being loving, patient, kind, etc. towards them always (see Galatians 5:22-23). If you have experienced true transformation with God, which I pray you have, then God has shown you true love. It is our responsibility to love in the same manner.

May God bless and keep you! ~Felicia   Email:  fmland32@gmail.com

“Single in Purpose” interview Link: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/theministryoflindaljohnson/2017/07/15/linda-l-johnson-presents-blogtalk-interviews

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